WHY DO I STILL STRUGGLE WITH EARLTHY THINGS?

Today I just wanted to write a little about what has been going on with me internally and what it seems the Father is trying to ingrain into my being and my heart. I have been struggling so much with the idea of God truly providing everything (and I mean everything) for me and having the Faith to trust that His Will will be done no matter what earthly struggles are going on. And that I don't have to struggle with that stuff, and that I just need to give it to Him to deal with and believe He will. Well, I can tell you that this "giving my earthly struggles to Him" is such a hard thing for me to do. I don't even really understand why. I KNOW that it is so much easier on me if I do. I KNOW He always comes through, always! I KNOW He is my provider. Just because my mind knows it doesn't mean my heart has fully conceded to it.

Jesus clearly said in Matthew 6:25-34, not to worry about food or clothing (which signifies earthly struggles to me) and that life was about more than that stuff. "Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?" He also said the Father takes care of all His creation, and in fact, that we are of more value to Him and not to worry. "Therefore do not worry . . ." "For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things." "But seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you."

So if I am truly seeking the Kingdom of God why I am worrying about silly things like paying $650 to fix my car or worrying about where the money will come from to pay the rest of the bills. Why do I let it irritate me so much to have to let go of the money He ultimately provided to me.  Is it not all His anyway?  Doesn't He know all things to come?  Don't I trust that He knows better than I?   Yes, yes,  and yes!  However, I've been having to go to the Father over and over on this and ask Him to please change my attitude, help me to not be irritated about it, help me to not even care (worry).   Because even though I KNOW, I haven't conceded to it in my heart.  For in retrospect of what God is all about and what I want to be for Him, money has no significance what so ever. But because we live in a world that is all about the dollar, it is very hard for any of these things to truly be ingrained into our being or our hearts so that we no longer have these earthy struggles and worries unless we allow the Holy Spirit to do it in us. This is definilitley something that is still being worked out in me and all I can do is continue to pray and ask the Father to please complete it in me and rest in it. AMEN!